October 2009
2 posts
why
why are you so bent out of shape about this you shouldnt care anymore i dont and i’m sick of the moping grow up for real people come and go and if cant accept it then dont make frineds because at one point and time people get bored of you and cant stand the fakeness do you get it person who will not be named.
The
I hope someone is there for me because my world is crashing down around me everyday a little more flaks off like nail polish on a fingernail
but you will be there you always are and even if we havent had a deep conversation or hongout after school you are there my long time no see friend my old friend my awesome kid who put himself down friend
thank you
September 2009
5 posts
who even cares anymore
about anything or anyone I dont you pushed me aside and you noticed so feel bad about it and dont try anymore
honestly
TALK TO ME NOT THEM!!!!!!!!!!!! THERE NOT IN THIS AT ALL NOR DO I WANT THEM TO BE.
I'm tired,
of being in this war and I’m tired of being on defense all the time can we sign a peace treaty or at the very least let me off this insane battlefield for awhile
I'm glad
I’m happy that now I can walk by you and not even care if you notice me or anything. I’m graetful for a friend like tia who helped me through a dumb crush on you and now I am you free lol
I am lame
Right now this very second i’m soposed to be doing an article review for sci. But instead i’m writng this so let me just update on how everything has been going down okay. so first thing that I did was have the most awesome first day of school I’ve had in a long time. Even if this person kinda made my bus ride uncool. But i’m not blameing her I’m just letting it roll...
August 2009
3 posts
The Person
there cool and smart funny,outgoing,sad at times,doesnt really care what other people think. Looking back I’m glad I was like that at sometime and want to be again.
I Miss
I miss the days when no one knew who
I was and I could go through the day with out a sound
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
I HAVE TO MAKE A WHOLE NEW MYSPACE I HATE PEOPLE WHO KNOW HOW TO HACK
July 2009
13 posts
You Are Funny
The way you sing along with songs you dont know.
the way you always think you know more then me.
the way its always my fault.
the way you always want to help but in the end you just make it worse.
the way you tell me one thing then do another.
you are soo funny that way.
Untitled
Its funny how you think I care.
Its amazing that you still think at all.
Its awesome that you dont see you hurt me.
Its great how you still try when we both know it wont help.
Its a good feeling when you stop on my feelings.
Its better when I cry myself to sleep.
Life is
Life is like a bunch of paint splatters some are pretty and look amazing. But others are terrible and out of place or they mix together and then it all just spins out of control. Then you cant change or take back anything that you painted.
Endless wonderland
I’m walking around in an endless wonderland where everything is either depressing or way to much fun to be real. But there is no way I want to wake up.
The strangest thing
I just herd A song by the spin doctors called two princes 3 times in like an hour in 3 diffrent places and not on porpose thats creepy because I love that song and have nver herd that many times at once for that no songs I listen have I herd that many times in one day let alone in one hour
The other half is unknown
I’m in a tug of war with myself and one half is un a ware of what its fighting for.
WTF is wrong with me
I fineally get a friend who is actually really cool who I can trust as much as sentilla and stuff keeps hapening that makes me feel like a compleate jerk face and I just want to say i’m sorry
and I know that stuff is spelled wrong but I dont care because it’s that message that count and I think she will understand them
I'm
I’m going crazy and I hate it
The End
The end is near and I hate feeling like i’m missing out I guess life is way diffrent then I imaged I find myself thinking all the time what if I did this or said that would I be in the same place or some where else. I wish that I wouldnt have been in such a big hurry to be older and would of enjoyed my childhood alot more then I did
sadness
i’m cold and full of so much sadness I guess thats what I get for being quiet
If they only knew
If they only knew how deep there words cut me when they say them or how hard it is for me to hold back the tears that have wanted to fall forever.Or that it hurts to read and see stuff that makes me feel forgotten or like the worse friend in the world
I guess what i’m trying to say is I’m sorry that I try to put on a happy face and put the bad stuff in the back of my mind when...
Why
Why do I wait for the texts.
Why do I smile everytime he calls.
Why do I stay up all night talking to him.
Why do I do all this.
even if there is nothing there at all.
Where just friends.
So why do I do all this.
Because I hope that one day it wont just be a friendship.
Summer
Dont get me wrong I love the summer.
But I end up in My head way to much and then I think I might just need help.
At least during school I have stuff to focus on.
June 2009
5 posts
What The?
A few days ago I almost drowned in the ocean with a friend and her little brother. Then the very next day my dad and I almost got into a car accident.
Was I supposed to die that weekend or was I in the wrong place at the wrong time.
I can’t describe it but I don’t feel right in the world anymore.
The Frist Time
The First time I looked into his eyes I saw The love.
The second time his concern for me.
The third time I Saw the jealously.
The fourth time the hate.
The fifth time I saw the pain
The sixth time the lie he told
The seventh time I saw a single tear roll down from it.
I’m glad he is gone.
The Worst Part
I wish that happiness lasted longer then a few moments.
But There Is that one thing or person that
take that smile you once had and
turns it into fear or hate
...
The "Guy" That Likes Me More
I saw Him
We Hugged
I Cryed
His Lip Quivered
I can’t Wait
For Him To Call
Act Like You Care For Once
The one time I want you to be there for me you change the subject and turn the whole thing on you. Just like that my problems my pain doesnt matter to you I hate it but anytime you have a problem I drop it all for you like I think for one second that you might just stop and ask me what is up with you. But you dont I hate it but I can’t stop being your friend and you know what I always will...